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Have you ever thought of how strange it is that you can have a conversation without really saying anything?
"I know, right?"
You could be talking about anything from a movie to a sale at your favorite department store to the second coming of Christ. That really has nothing to do with the meat of this post, but I've been thinking about it, and after the title of this blog post.... Anyway. I digress...
This season of my life has been very trying. As most of you know I have a broken foot. It's been 2 1/2 months, and I have to have surgery on June 14th. (For those of you who pray, I would greatly appreciate prayers for a smooth recovery!) It may be another 2 1/2 months after surgery. We are surely hoping for less, but who knows?
And then, we're meeting financial advisers and planning on how we're paying off our debt, fixing up our house to sell, getting appraisals... The appraisals came in SO low it's ridiculous. Like $100K LOW. (Side note: Huntington Bank is great for checking and savings accounts but do not EVER use them for appraisals.) So everything has come to a screeching halt.
My least favorite answer to prayer isn't no. It's wait. Wait. I STINK at waiting. I'm a doer. A fixer. A pull the trigger, fish or cut bait, Type A, get it done kind of girl. So when God says, "Wait," I'm like, WHAT? Might as well tell me stop requiring oxygen!
My least two favorite words in the Bible? "Be still." For those of you who knew me before Myasthenia Gravis entered my life, had you ever seen me be still? Maybe in my sleep. Maybe. So I've been asking God to show me what He's trying to tell me, and guess what I'm getting?
Sigh. Okay, God, I got the message. I don't like it, and I don't know how to do it, but I finally understand. It's so much easier to encourage OTHERS to be still and wait for the Lord... To remind them that God is always in control, and that He definitely knows better than I do.
So as I try to quiet the beast inside me begging for action, I humbly ask for your prayers. It's a swift learning curve, but the sooner I figure it out, the better off I will be (and probably those around me who have had to put up with my irritable self!).
I'm so grateful I have a Father in Heaven who wants the very best for me that He will do whatever it takes to ensure I get it. Myasthenia Gravis came into my life at a time when my life was on the verge of going down a very wrong path. I had to quit a job I loved, was really good at, and made amazing money doing. But moral issues were popping up that I was incredibly uncomfortable with...and then I literally became so sick I could NOT work any longer. That was the best thing that ever happened to me, and it certainly wasn't pleasant.
All this happening now isn't pleasant either, but I know that when I come out the other side (notice I said WHEN not IF!), I will be a better person for it. Life is full of mountain tops and valleys. The view from the top is breathtaking. And I've been blessed with some incredible mountaintop experiences. But where does the growth take place? In the valleys, my friends. We cannot grow on the mountaintop. We must experience the valleys. So as I go through this valley, I am trying my very best to lean into My Father, and to be still, and to KNOW, the HE is God.
"The will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14 NIV
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,