SO MUCH on my mind....

Sometimes it's hard to straighten it all out. I'm not even sure how to put everything I'm thinking into words....fears, insecurities, appreciation, disappointment, gratitude, thankfulness, realization....the only thing I AM sure of is that God is on the throne, and He ain't going anywhere! Sure am glad I'M not in charge.

I finally started writing my book. I've had the opening line in my head for about 8 months now, and I've been talking about writing one for years...well, I finally started. I really don't know what I'm doing as far as structure...I've never been good at formatting stuff, I just write. I'll have to have someone help me on the specifics of all that. I guess that's what editors are for??

I'm completely bummed that I missed the beginning of summer Bible study last night. I had a terrible, horrible, no-good, very bad day. (Well, I would have if my name was Alexander...) I guess it wasn't THAT bad. But it wasn't great. I woke up groggy...Wednesday morning, Jacob decided to wake up at 5:30. Nice. Wednesday afternoon my mom, dad and brother came over and had dinner. It was awesome, but I was SO tired. So yesterday I was super tired, and a helper came over for Jacob, and Jacob was just NOT in the mood. He was ridiculous.

I started getting a horrible headache... I tried to rest in the afternoon while Jacob napped...I couldn't sleep, of course... But I rested...got up feeling even worse. I do feel a little better today, but I'm still really tired. We're going to my mom and dad's tonight for supper to see my brother one last time before he goes back to California. What a visit...I'm SO glad he came. It has meant a lot to all of us...

Anyway...hopefully I can rest and start feeling better....no pheresis until next Friday. Maybe that will help....