Thursday, November 20, 2008

Things That Surprise You When You Clean

Well, I am thankful that I get in these "moods" sometimes, because almost all my sentimental bones (and there are quite a few) seem to go dormant, and I'm like, why in the world have I been hanging on to THIS for ten years???? You know the rule "If you haven't seen it/used it/worn it in a year, get rid of it?" More like 5 years here.

Found Jacob's other green sippy cup. In the office. Buried under dust bunnies, some ammo in a camoflouge bag, some Creative Memories stuff, and a box. The office has become the catchall. It was supposed to be "my" room, for Creative Memories, computer, etc. But since Doug's biggest gun cabinet is in here, we have the inevitable gun paraphenalia. I hope that last statement doesn't like, flag the FBI or anything. It's ALL LEGAL.

I got a bunch of Creative Memories stuff that had been Linda's, and I was going through that too. One box was pretty harmless, had lots of cool bags, t-shirts, stuff like that. The other one had a bunch of product in it with prices on that she had written, a couple of albums that she had pre-made (so you can just add pictures and journal)...the stuff with her handwriting on it was tough.

It's just second nature to think "Linda." Linda would love this! Oh my gosh I can't wait to tell Linda..... I wonder what Linda thought of that Rachael Ray episode? TV shows that come on that she used to love. Books I have that I never got back to her. Stuff I find while I'm cleaning...a note from her, a card, a gift. Now Thanksgiving is coming, then her birthday, then Christmas, all within one month. The first Thanksgiving without her....the first birthday without her....All the firsts. Please remember her family in your prayers through this time also.

So many memories....everywhere I look. It's good and bad, ya know? I mean, I don't want to EVER forget the feelings and wonderful memories that such things evoke, yet it's still soon enough that what little has mended in my heart seems to be torn open again. I love you Linda. And oh, how I miss you.


Joanna said...

Aww. Been praying for you and I'll be praying for her family.

Keep talking about her. She'll live on in the memories.

Leigh said...

It is so hard to lose someone you love. My mom died the day Nathan was born, one week before her 50th birthday and we buried her the day before Thanksgiving. I only share that to encourage you that while it is so so hard right now it gets easier. God's ability to heal is nothing short of astounding.

I will be praying for you and her family too. The "firsts" are difficult and I think one of the healthiest things you can do is acknowledge that and remember that the Lord is with you every step of the way.

Psalm 34:18
18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Kerri said...

Love you girls.