Yikes. I was so cranky yesterday. Just have had enough, ya know? I just can't seem to catch a break, and then last night my sister calls me to tell me that her husband's 12 year old cousin is being taken off life support. Talk about a slap in the face.
I am so absolutely human. So selfish. So self-absorbed. If I am not in the Word, reading Christian books, listening to Christian music almost 24/7, it seems like I can't hold it together. At least I KNOW I'm pathetic, right? Isn't that the first step? Admitting you have a problem...?
Ug. So yah, I see my attitude swirling down the flusher, and I'm trying to save it.....trying to stay positive. Trying to be thankful when I really do have so much to be thankful for. I'm just tired. Tired of it all. The pain, heartache, horror, disappointment, tragedy of this broken, dying world.
Jacob was up about 6 times last night...I got about 4 hours of sleep....doesn't that ALWAYS seem to happen when you need it most??? Okay, Lord. I could use a break here.....