Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Trying to Salvage My Attitude

Hey all.

Yikes. I was so cranky yesterday. Just have had enough, ya know? I just can't seem to catch a break, and then last night my sister calls me to tell me that her husband's 12 year old cousin is being taken off life support. Talk about a slap in the face.

I am so absolutely human. So selfish. So self-absorbed. If I am not in the Word, reading Christian books, listening to Christian music almost 24/7, it seems like I can't hold it together. At least I KNOW I'm pathetic, right? Isn't that the first step? Admitting you have a problem...?

Ug. So yah, I see my attitude swirling down the flusher, and I'm trying to save it.....trying to stay positive. Trying to be thankful when I really do have so much to be thankful for. I'm just tired. Tired of it all. The pain, heartache, horror, disappointment, tragedy of this broken, dying world.

Jacob was up about 6 times last night...I got about 4 hours of sleep....doesn't that ALWAYS seem to happen when you need it most??? Okay, Lord. I could use a break here.....

4 comments:

Leigh @ intentslife said...

Praying for McKenzie's family - how heartbreaking too.

I'm also praying for you. We're all human, I'm just so thankful that God is forever patient with us.

Young Wife said...

One thing I'm learning is that things can always be worse. And yet, God cares, even when our problems seem small in comparision with others. It's good that you're being thankful and trying to stay positive. Just remember it's okay to be sad or upset. :)

Joanna said...

Bad day? Then I demand we have another frappe pick me off the floor McTalking session. :)

Kerri said...

Joanna, I almost called you yesterday because my mom was here and I had a really short doc appointment. DRAT. I DID get a frappe though. Couldn't help myself.