Sunday, June 3, 2012

Trying To Focus On The Blessings

This morning has been a very melancholy one for me.  It's getting warm out.  The time of year when most people go outside, go to the beach, go swimming, have picnics outside, enjoy the warm weather...

But I can't do that.

Summer is usually a very lonely time for me.  I have been trying to focus on the positives in my life, but today it's been hard.  I know I have it so much better than so many, even with my health issues.  I have a beautiful home with a husband and son who adore me.  I have 3 fluffy dogs that drive me insane love me a lot too!  I really do love my doggies...sometimes they just get loud.

June is National Myasthenia Gravis Awareness Month, and so I'm posting each day about MG and its lovely effects on my (and others') life.  It's exhausting to always FORCE yourself to focus on the good when it's so much easier to focus on the crud and complain.  I try not to whine and complain, but hey, we all have our moments. Sometimes the grief of what I have lost to this disease consumes me.  But then I look Up, and remember that I have a Hope and a Future waiting for me in Heaven, and that this life is fleeting compared to eternity.

AND I'm getting my first 10 "Chronic Illness Packets" out.  Gotta get working on my book again too.  I made HUGE progress last November with NaNoWriMo.  Not much since then.  I need to get a new computer (working on that!), but that's no excuse.  Gotta get on it.

I'm a little in a funk from pheresis too.  Had 2 treatments last week, and have one more this Wednesday.  Then I will be done for a loooong time.  I'm hoping to go all summer.  We shall see!

Until tomorrow....remember, just because someone LOOKS fine doesn't mean they ARE.

4 comments:

CoconutPalmDesigns said...

I'm sorry you are having a rough, melancholy, day. My thoughts and prayers are with you. And here's hoping tomorrow will be brighter!

Cheers :-)
Joanne
- CoconutPalmDesigns

Kerri said...

Thanks, Joanne. It's great to be hearing from you again!

Rachel said...

So very sorry you're feeling blue today...Thank you for being there to cheer me when the monster rears it's ugly head. You've helped to make my first two years with MG bearable...Sending good thoughts and prayers your way <3...

Suzy said...

Bad days are horrible. I pray tomorrow things will be a bit better for you.

I'm was just surfing around the blogs trying to find a kindred spirit that understands living with a chronic illness. I'm so glad I stopped it.