Friday, December 16, 2011

Five Minute Friday

 
So today I'm linking up with the gypsy mama for Five Minute Friday.  Five minutes, just writing, no editing.  Today's prompt is: CONNECTED.

START:

I need to be connected.  It's not a want, a desire, a "wish."  It's a "have to." I HAVE to be connected.  To people.  To God.  To my family.  To my husband and son.  I am a person who needs connection.  I'm like a plug....have to have an outlet to make me complete.  No power without connection.

I haven't done such a great job of this lately.  I've been so caught up in the busy-ness of the season; making cookies, wrapping presents, buying presents, wrapping presents, etc.  Sending packages. Mailing cards.  But I haven't taken the time to really connect with my friends, my family, or my God.  I get so busy trying to do, do, do, that I don't.  

I hate feeling disconnected and alone.  I hate feeling that that other part of me is missing.  Because of where I live, and my health, I'm in my house a lot.  A LOT.  And I hate it.  I can't work.  I can't just pick up and go.  I can't just run errands at the drop of a hat.  Everything takes planning and effort.  I don't have a sense of community.  Of connected-ness.  And I hate it.

I'm so thankful for technology.  For my computer, my phone....they help me connect in a very real way.  I get to talk to people like me, with MG, who help me and encourage me.  They are my friends.  They are my connection.

Unfortunately, living vicariously is no substitute for the real thing:  a visit from a friend.  A hug.  A real, flesh-and-blood, I'm-so-glad-to-see-you, I-love-you-and-am-thrilled-you-are-in-my-life, life-giving hug.
Sigh.

STOP.

9 comments:

ALifeSanctified said...

Kerri, thank you for this heart-felt and heart-filled post. You are not only connected but a catalyst for connection of others. Praying that you and your family have a blessed Christmas. BTW ... for cookies my address is ... PO BOX 31 ... :)
Much love,
Felecia

joan said...

Kerri,

Thank you for sharing you soul. We are directly connected to Jesus. And from that connection we have this wonderful community of folks that blog, share, love, and pray for each other.

Praying that you will always remain connected to your power source, Jesus Christ.

Abundant Blessing to you and your family this Christmas and always...

Joan

MiMi said...

Kerri, this is a wonderful way to be and stay connected. It is so honest and true. I believe your blog will help all of us who are struggling with chronic illness and unable to express our feelings about it. Thank you for our raw honesty.
Your MG buddy,
Rita

MiMi said...

Kerri, this is a wonderful way to be and stay connected. It is so honest and true. I believe your blog will help all of us who are struggling with chronic illness and unable to express our feelings about it. Thank you for our raw honesty.
Your MG buddy,
Rita

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Brenda said...

What a great post. Thanks for sharing your heart.

Eva Gallant said...

We all have slow down and "smell the roses" now and then. I just stopped by from SITS to say hi; hope you find time to do the same. And Merry Christmas!

Azuma-chan said...
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Azuma-chan said...

I hear you my friend. I so totally hear you. I may not have any chronic illness like you but I know what it is like to be disconnected from people around you for any reason.

I'm grateful to the internet too for how it brings us together in many way we couldn't do in real life.

Bless you for sharing this and being honest. By the way, I visited your blog before and noticed that you got a new look. Really wonderful. Love it. Purple is my favorite too ^^