Five Minute Friday

 

So today I'm linking up with the gypsy mama for Five Minute Friday.  Five minutes, just writing, no editing.  Today's prompt is: CONNECTED.

START:

I need to be connected.  It's not a want, a desire, a "wish."  It's a "have to." I HAVE to be connected.  To people.  To God.  To my family.  To my husband and son.  I am a person who needs connection.  I'm like a plug....have to have an outlet to make me complete.  No power without connection.

I haven't done such a great job of this lately.  I've been so caught up in the busy-ness of the season; making cookies, wrapping presents, buying presents, wrapping presents, etc.  Sending packages. Mailing cards.  But I haven't taken the time to really connect with my friends, my family, or my God.  I get so busy trying to do, do, do, that I don't.  

I hate feeling disconnected and alone.  I hate feeling that that other part of me is missing.  Because of where I live, and my health, I'm in my house a lot.  A LOT.  And I hate it.  I can't work.  I can't just pick up and go.  I can't just run errands at the drop of a hat.  Everything takes planning and effort.  I don't have a sense of community.  Of connected-ness.  And I hate it.

I'm so thankful for technology.  For my computer, my phone....they help me connect in a very real way.  I get to talk to people like me, with MG, who help me and encourage me.  They are my friends.  They are my connection.

Unfortunately, living vicariously is no substitute for the real thing:  a visit from a friend.  A hug.  A real, flesh-and-blood, I'm-so-glad-to-see-you, I-love-you-and-am-thrilled-you-are-in-my-life, life-giving hug.

Sigh.

STOP.