Saturday, October 22, 2011

Five Minute Saturday

I missed Five-Minute Friday with Gypsy Mama, but I liked the prompt, so I'm going to do it anyway.  I'm not gonna link up, but it's basically writing for 5 minutes, no stopping, no editing, no back tracking, just writing.  The prompt:  Beyond


Beyond the prison of my body is the real me.  Beyond the four walls of my house and the 30 acres of nothing that surrounds me.  I'm out there. In my heart, in my soul....I'm out there.  I'm not here.  But I am.  I can't GET beyond.

Oh but how I wish I could.  I long for the days when I could go beyond the back door. When I could work, and go out and stay up beyond 9 o'clock.

My mind goes beyond.  My mind is still the same.  It's only my physical body that is stuck.  But it starts to effect the mind.  It's the ultimate betrayal.

My husband goes beyond every day.  He goes out the door, beyond the mailbox, beyond the driveway, the corner, the vet, the grocery store, and to work.  He goes beyond the small town we live outside of for conferences and meetings and lunches.  He could care less.  He wouldn't mind staying within.

But how I long for beyond.  Just out of reach. Just over the ledge....Just....beyond.



Patty Ann said...

You can still post and link up late!! I think you have until Tuesday, but I am not sure. I know that I have linked up on Saturday before. Sometimes, life just gets in the way, and five minutes can seem like forever.
I am sorry that you feel so trapped. That can be a hard feeling. Having the desire to get beyond, but lacking the physical ability. However, you do get beyond many other things. You are beyond kind. You make my heart sing with your kindness and thanksgiving. You are beyond anger. You don't take out your difficulties on Heavenly Father. You trust Him to get you through this. You are beyond lies. You tell it like it is, hard or not, and let the chips fall where they may. That is actually something that many people can't manage to do.
I do know that this is hard. I really wish that I could pray you better and that somehow you would not be going through all this. I don't know why you are, or why it continues. But I do know that He loves you. He is aware of your difficulties and your pain. I do know that He is the only person that can heal your heart and provide you with contentment and peace. I do know that you are completely amazing!!

WhisperingWriter said...

I'm sorry you feel this way. That must be hard.