Friday, December 2, 2011

Five-Minute Friday

For only five short, bold, beautiful minutes. Unscripted and unedited. We just write without worrying if it’s just right or not.
I’m so relieved to have these five minutes. Won’t you join me?
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    1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking. 2. Link back here and invite others to join in. 3. Most importantly: leave a comment for the person who linked up before you – encouraging them in their writing!
OK, are you ready? Give me your best five minutes on: TIRED

Tired.
START

I am tired.  In so many ways.
I am tired of people taking advantage of those less fortunate.
I am tired of people taking what doesn't belong to them, whether it is material or emotional.  Take, take, take.  What happened to giving?

I am tired of getting stabbed with needles the size of fork tines and having my veins blow and having it hurt like a kind of pain you'd never want to experience in your life.  I'm tired of having a chronic illness and depending on others for most everything, but yet being expected to DO most everything.  Makes. No. Sense.
I'm tired of being ignored. Not listened to.  Taken for granted. Avoided. Stared at. Talked about. 

I'm tired of trying and trying and trying and trying some more to do the right thing to only have it fall flat before my face.  Of being sabotaged.  Of being....  Of just being.

Tired.  Always tired.  No matter if I sleep or if I don't.
I'm tired of society deciding whose important.  I'm tired of good people getting crapped on and crappy people getting good things.  I know in the end, it will all come out.  The good, the bad, the ugly.  But sometimes, suffering just sucks and that's all there is to it.

I wish I could have the tire-lessness of my 5 year old.  I wish I would see the world with UN-tired eyes.  With unjaded opinions.  But alas....It's too tiring.

STOP 

5 comments:

Unknown said...

Popping over from 5-Min Friday link-up. Thank you for sharing your feelings and thoughts here. I can validate what you shared. By writing your post, you have validated my own tiredness in body, mind, and soul. God Bless.

Bekka said...

It is tiring, hey? I hear you. I'm at a tired place myself. And I keep saying "I'm tired." But no one seems to hear or understand. They make assumptions about what I really must mean...

Thank you for this. It helps to relieve some of the pressure to read and see that others know what I feel, too.

Suzanne McClendon said...

Looks like we're in the same boat here. Sometimes life just stinks and some of us are getting an extra helping these days. I'll pray for you.

I'm here from Five Minute Friday. I hope that you have a Merry Christmas and a great weekend.

Azuma-chan said...

You speak my mind, I was going to write the same thing. Plus, I'm tired from my asthma attacks. They have been a lot lately. Every time I feel half dead and people's ignorance just makes it worst.

Thank you for sharing this, bless you.

Pitterle Postings said...

Kerri, I am so sorry that this is not a good week. I really wish that you did not have to go through all this. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Please know that you are loved, tired or not, and that you are needed and that you are amazing.

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