Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Crazy Is As Crazy Does.....



So. If you question yourself about being crazy, does that mean you have the presence of mind to differentiate between crazy and sane, so you're not really crazy? Or does it mean, yup, you're pretty much nuts, so just embrace it. Always wondered about that.

I guess I just embrace it. Always been a little bit of crazy in me. Oh come on, you know there is in you too. Life would be FAR too boring without a little bit of insanity.

So as some of you know , I popped a rib out with my coughing from this ridiculous cold, and from being beat up in the truck in Florida. So my precious child is at my in-laws...he stayed over night last night, and he's staying again tonight. One part of me is whooping it up (immobiley, of course, since I cannot walk!) because I am the ONLY.PERSON.IN.MY.HOUSE. I can do what I want, when I want (well, sort of. I can sit where I want and watch or read or listen to what I want). But just to be able to catch up on computer stuff and reading! Oh, sweet bliss!!

And then 10 seconds later I'm bawling because I miss my baby. We are just never apart, which is why the above paragraph was written. I simply can't take care of him right now...I am barely keepin up with myself. Stairs are terrible. I couldn't do anything but get frustrated with him, and he'd have no fun here, and I KNOW he's having fun with Grandma and Grandpa and their dog Lucy. They go for walks...He's having a blast. But the Mommy guilt sucks.

He called last night because he wanted to talk to me. He said "I love you Mommy" about 6 times. That tiny, sweet voice in my ear...I thought I was going to melt right there. I know I need the rest, and I know he's better off. I just have to keep busy so I don't dwell on it. I need this rest and relaxation, icing my back, etc.

Anywho. My back is still reeeaaalllly sore, and I am still fighting this cold, so I can use all the rest that I can get. And it will be just that much sweeter when I see him in another day. Mommy loves you my precious boy!!!

7 comments:

Kristina said...

Oooh I can't imagine how you must be feeling! It would seem like such a welcome break to have some time to actually get stuff done, but then I wouldn't be able to handle it either. I start missing my little one when I've only been gone to a hockey game!

I hope you're feeling better soon and I'm so glad you stopped by my little place. I have a friend who was just diagnosed with MS so I will have to tell her to stop by!

:)

Kristina

Young Wife said...

I'm so sorry! I hope your rib is better soon. It must be so hard to be away from him. Love you, girl!

Corrie Howe said...

I'm sorry but I had to chuckle when I read this post. I was a single mom for six years. My parents would come and take my son for a weekend or week (once for three months) at a time to help me out with work and studying). On the one hand I was so happy to have uninterrupted time. However, I'd spend the first part of him being gone depressed and doing nothing that I intended.

Tammy said...

Mommy guilt is the worse! I hope your back is on the mend and that you are feeling better soon. Just think how precious your son's hug will be!

Just stopping by from SITS to say hi!

Jenny Brown said...

Hope your cold gets better and sorry to hear about your back! Hope you're 'ship-shape' in no time! What an adorable little guy you have.....what a cutie....I'll have to read up on 'Myasthenia Gravis' so I know whats up in your life........I'm looking forward to reading more of your posts. I noticed you have 'Believe' posted on your blog...........my favorite saying is "Always Believe!" :):)

Jenxr77 said...

I hope you are feeling a little better today. It is hard enough to have a cold with MG, let alone a cracked rib. You are in my prayers!

Chelsea said...

I love the comment by Mary Pickford. Very good stuff. Keep up your good spirit and courage!