Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Joy and Thankfulness

I spent the better part of an hour reading a blog today I had never seen before. A woman was describing her pregnancy, the expectation of their fourth child, a girl. At 20 weeks, she had an ultrasound, and she and her husband were told their baby would probably never live, because of some serious birth defects. For 16 weeks she carried that information, along with her precious child growing in her belly, accompanying a deepening of her walk with the Lord that just astounded me. She delivered by C-section a 3 1/2 pound beautiful baby girl, who was with them on this earth for 2 1/2 hours. My heart could take no more.

I have read other stories lately, on blogs, in e-mails from friends. I have heard about this person in this situation, and that person in another...

After I read that blog this morning, I turned off my computer, went sobbling and sniffling into the living room where my precious miracle of life sat watching The Little Einsteins. I grabbed him up and squeezed him tight and held him and rocked him and just told him over and over how much I loved him, and how thankful I was for him. I must have kissed him 100 times. I just did NOT want to let go! He was like, "Awww....I love you too Mommy. Can I watch TV now?" (Well, he is only 3!)

I was just struck with so many emotions! Pure, unadulterated joy in my child. Heart-striken grief for dear friends and family who are suffering their own kinds of losses right now, who have unanswered questions, who live moment by moment not sure what the next day will bring. Shame at how much I complain about the things in life that some would be grateful for, because it would mean they were alive. How did I get to be so fortunate in life? Why did God decide to bless ME with such an awesome task as raising this amazing child? With everything going on with my health, how is it that I was able to have a perfectly healthy child? Only by the grace of God, my friends.

My husband has a stable, steady job. Thank you LORD for that blessing. Other than my health, I couldn't ask for better life! Look at the people in Haiti! Look at the children, right here in America, that go without food or clothing, or warm coats because of poverty.

None of us our guaranteed tomorrow. My dear friend Joanna and I were talking about loving people where they are RIGHT NOW...Look around you. Please don't miss an opportunity to tell someone you love them. Tell them you appreciate them. Are thankful for them. Look at people in the eye when you pass them on the street. SMILE at them. You may never know what one kindness from a stranger could do to a person who is going through a horrible time.

Please don't pass up precious moments for things that WILL NOT MATTER a week from now. Scoop up your children...kiss them. Cuddle up to your spouse, or your children, or your pet... Show someone love TODAY. And PLEASE don't take them for granted. We may never know when they will be called home.


Beverly said...

Oh my Bloggy friend..God directed you to the blog. He sends me places I need to be too!

Danielle said...

I am SO glad you found that blog. It is ALWAYS a great thing when we can be so thankful for everything we have been blessed with. I need to do that more often. Thanks for stopping by.


Jenxr77 said...

Thank you Kerri,

You have such a wonderful perspective on things. I was just sitting downstairs brainstorming about my blog and was going to go into how thankful I am for this week. God Bless you and your beautiful family.


Pam said...

ok I finally was about to the point of not crying any more than I read this...you have a way of touching me in places and reminding me of how blessed I am.
I am blessed I know that
I am so thankful you have your precious miracle. I have three of them too. I also have a special angle in heaven after only holding her twice, the first time to say hello and then the hardest thing I have ever ever had to do was to hand her over to my hubby and loved ones so they could hole her to say hello knowing that I had only moments to hold her myseld..I wanted them to hold her to love her to say hello but to have them say good bye to her till they see her in heaven was too much for this mother to bear.
the second time I held her was when I sang to her...In His Time God makes all things beautiful In his Tim...
and to tell her how much I love her and tell her I will see her in heaven some day.
You are so right we do not know when we will lose someone we love...I never was able to say good bye to me sister in law when she died suddenly and you were not able to say goodbye to your sister either when she was killed...
I am so thankful for the hope we have of seeing them again.
One of the things I learned from your sister, then Holly, then Mary, was that I do not say good bye with out saying Love you.
I want them to know how much they are loved...even if I do not like them that time...yes sometimes others can drive us nuts...but love wins if we are praying for them and allow God to help us to love them...
every night i climb into bed and snuggle next to Doug I am so thankful he is there by me... I am safe in his arms and I am not alone, I know there are so many who are like my brother.
I was just asked last week Thursday to connect a lady who just found out she is carring a baby who has problems and is not going to live after she is born...do you still have the blog. I would love to share that with this precious mom who is scared, anxious, still praying fro a miracle as we all know that God is more than able to grant her child life here on this earth however if He chooses to take this little angel back to live with Him, maybe this blog would help encourage this mom in the right time...
It amazes me how much Holly taught me and she was only here on this earth for 3 precious hours. I am not the same person I was before she was inside of me... I am very thankful God blessed me with her...but that does not mean I miss her any less...
oh shoot now I am crying more...God must have lots of bottles of my tears in Heaven which makes me thankful because he love me so much he collects them...great reminder!
I am going to go back to bed and rest for a while and pray thanking God for all the special people in my life!
Rachel and I were talking about the same thing that you were talking about with your friend yesterday, we need to encourage instead of criticize or judge, we need to love and pray for others...even those who disappoint us...our family is going through a tough time...we could use a few people to stop hurting our family...long story short...
"You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives." ~ Genesis 50:20

Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
and He will make your paths straight.
~ Proverbs 3:5-6
I love you Keri and please give that little guy of yours a hug from me today! <3 (one can never have to many!)

Kerri said...

Pam, here is the link to the beginning of the story:

I'll send you an e-mail with the link too. This is the wife of Todd from Selah...wasn't there just a concert with them recently? Anyway....it's an amazing story.

I can't imagine what you went through with Holly. I was just talking to Lori today about how strong people are who can make it through something like that. I couldn't do it. God knows that. I would snap. This illness, I can deal with it. It stinks, but I can deal. So much loss...BUT...so many angels in heaven, and so many reasons we just might never know.

Cole said...

I've come across some of the most heartbreaking stories on blogs lately, as well. I always end up sobbing and being reminded of just how blessed I am.