I'm not sure what it is I love so much about beginning. The hope maybe? The newness? The freshness? The clean slate? Like right now, as I look out the window, I see freshly fallen snow. A bright blue sky. Everything looks clean and clear. Pristine. New.
But in a few days, the snow will get dirty. The traffic will kick up dirt and grime, and the beautiful freshly fallen snow becomes snirt (snow + dirt). It's no longer clean. It's no longer pristine. Not so new anymore.
I'm SO good at beginning. At starting a new thing. A new project. A new Bible study. A new discipline plan with Jacob. A new attitude towards my illness. But pretty soon, my attitude becomes snirt. Following through is not my forte. I'm not exactly sure why either. It's kind of annoying. I guess part of it is that I need accountability. For example, Joanna and I are doing Bible study together. If we weren't, I probably wouldn't be doing a study. But knowing that I am accountable to her, that she is depending on me to have it done, that motivates me.
I guess I am good at following through if it's something I LIKE to do. There really is nothing like a finished project! Our pantry for example. We unloaded every. single. item. to clean and rework the shelves. It took days. But the finished project is amazing. I wish I could have that attitude towards everything. I guess that's what makes us human.
I'm so thankful that God's mercies are new every morning...that His compassion never gives up, or runs out, or get snirty.
So if I DID make resolutions, which I don't, I would say that I want to work on following through. I'm a great beginner, but a not-so-great ender. We'll see what happens!